My cat LOVES to curse, it's a thing
Apr. 17th, 2025 10:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Me: *opens the door* there. Go. Shit.
Mom: CRANTZ
Me: It's okay, I was saying it to the cat
Mom: She's a good Christian cat!
Me: She really isn't
I need to do a deep clean in my room. Debating watching The Harlow Murder Club with Elly instead. We thought it was an episodic murder mystery but goddamnit it's a four episode season over an overarching plot. We need to finish it before the month is up so I don't have to pay for another month of bbc select.
I've been walking again now that the weather doesn't want to kill me and I forgot how good it was for my brain. Probably the only point I didn't want to throw myself off a ravine yesterday was the walk.
The needs of capital.
Apr. 14th, 2025 05:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
What’s under assault right now isn’t jobs. A great many jobs are being extinguished, and each lost job is a measure of misery for many people. But the greater heartbreak is the loss of work—the separation from meaningful, changeful work, and from the impacts of that work, from the world that comes into being when our work is oriented towards the living. It’s telling that so many of the jobs currently under attack are those of technology people performing civil service: these are people who chose work that was less glamorous, and less remunerative, than the standard tech path, but also more purposeful, more likely to actually deliver on tech’s otherwise empty promise of a better world. The message is clear: you will work for the needs of capital, or you will work not at all.
Mandy Brown on
.As someone who spent their entire career in and around the public service, the reality is that, yeah. Most people are there because they’re true believers in the work. By which I mean “the ability of government to provide services to improve the lives of citizens.” This is especially true for anyone working in a specialist area — tech definitely, but also things like medicine, etc. — who could get a much higher-paid role in the private sector. This isn’t give a lot of airplay in the culture because, in general, public servants are trained not to really talk about their work or experiences; discretion is a key part of the job when that job is handling everything from sensitive policy proposals to the personal information of millions of citizens to, frankly, the personalities of some extremely high-profile people (i.e., politicians).
The bureaucracy as an entity is far from perfect, and like every workplace it has its fair share of people who are toxic or useless or both. But the texture and quality of it is notably different to private sector work, in a way that I think is hard to grasp if you haven’t experienced it. And that difference is, frankly, hated by anyone who’s gone ideologically all-in on ultra-capitalism, because it represents an entirely different model of work, of personal fulfilment, to “extract surplus value for profit.”
Hence, y’know. Chainsaw time.
My heart might be willing by this time next year
Apr. 13th, 2025 01:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
The three recipes on my end that made it all work:
Gingko is in full rude girl mode today, after spending the night sleeping oh so sweetly on the other pillow at the head of my bed. Yesterday, she threw a tantrum when I wouldn't let her take a second trip down our business drag to beg for treats at each shop. Today, while doing just that, she made a scene at the queer gift shop/gallery. When she's hungry, especially when she can see food but can't have it yet, she'll point with her paw to, say, where her bowl goes. She'll also paw at your leg (or laptop) for attention. At the gallery, she thwapped one of the two owners in the junk! ("That's far from the first time that's happened," his partner said dryly from the couch nearby.)
Right now, she's in the crate, after I found her, yet again, all four feet atop my dining room table, trying to clean up plates and glasses. For once, she's not complaining (shouting and hollering!!), so... perhaps she knows she needs to chill out!! Which means it's time for me to take a shower and bite the bullet on my goddamn taxes. The free-file of affliction, sigh.
Things I've been reading 2
Apr. 12th, 2025 08:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Recently Finished:
Cinema Love, Jiaming Tang. 1980s China and 2020s NYC (specifically pandemic times), with multiple POVs. The book centers around gay men from rural China and the women who loved and hated and protected them. Not an easy read, but compelling. This one also hit weirdly because I live near one of the neighborhoods featured in the book. The pandemic times scenes were spot-on, but it's also a little disorienting to read about a specific time and place you know pretty intimately but from the perspective of someone else who also clearly knows the time and place pretty intimately!
Fifty Beasts to Break Your Heart and Other Stories, Gennarose Nethercott. Solidly mid short story collection. I really liked "The Thread Boy" and "Drowning Lessons," but most of the others stories left me either feeling meh or completely baffled about what I was supposed to get from them. At least two just stopped in a way that I think was supposed to be ~edgy or ~shocking, but came across as unfinished thoughts.
Catfish Rolling, Clara Kumagai. First five-star read of the year. Loved the magical realism, loved the timey-wimey-ness, loved the science fiction elements and the family dynamics and the late teens/early twenties protagonists. Highly recommend this one, and definitely going to keep an eye out for more from Kumagai.
What You Are Looking For Is In the Library, Michiko Aoyama (translated by Alison Watts). I wanted to like this book. It does some fun magic-of-books-and-libraries things, and I liked how each of the vignettes connected to each other. But the prominent fatphobia from all of the POV characters (the Librarian is described as grotesquely overweight) was extremely uncomfortable and a major turnoff.
In Memoriam, Alice Winn. I absolutely consumed all 380 pages of this book in two days. It would have been one day except I had prior engagements already scheduled that I could not skip. My second five-star read of the year. I could not put it down. I'm still thinking about it a full month later. It immediately went on the to-buy list.
On Tyranny: Twenty Lessons from the Twentieth Century, Timothy Snyder. All I can really say about this is oof.
The Clothing of Books, Jhumpa Lahiri. A meditation/essay on book covers and how they are and aren't a reflection of the author's vision of their book. I liked the insight into the lack of control traditionally published authors have over the cover designs of their books and how that can be distancing for the author (or for Lahiri, at least; I think she'd be the first to admit that her feelings on this aren't universal).
Daughter of the Moon Goddess, Sue Lynn Tan. This was a fun adventure story after some much heavier reads. This was my beach vacation read, and I had a good time. I think the love triangle would be more interesting if it were queer, but it's the B- or C-plot, so whatever. Looking forward to the sequel once my library hold comes in.
Godzilla and Godzilla Raids Again, Shigeru Kayama (translated by Jeffrey Angles). The novelizations of the first two movies, by the screenwriter! They mostly follow the films, but there are a few major changes, especially in the first (like shifting characters' ages to minimize the romantic subplot). I appreciated the translator's historical context notes at the end. I can't imagine a Hollywood blockbuster going from concept to wide release in just six months!
Current Reads:
The Siege of Burning Grass, Premee Mohamed
Sonnets to Orpheus, Rainer Maria Rilke
Life advice you can use
Apr. 12th, 2025 04:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Image search:
- Gloster Canary
- Viscacha (I mean the mountain one, but the plains one has much to recommend it)
- Tibetan Fox
I've gotten onto a new little bit of entertainment after seeing advice that to draw a medieval cat, all you do is draw a regular cat and give it a human face. So I did it with my cat and found it to be acceptable. And then I did a large portion of the cast of HamsterBandit Industries and giggled madly at the resulting Elly the Elephant and I'll be doing more later. Look forward to seeing medieval Guineamom.
I've passed my courses for this term and now I only require one more religion 200 course to get my degree. I'm an anthropology major/religion minor!
I get to register for my next courses on the 29th. I'm either going to be taking drug-induced spirituality or Buddhism.
Saturday @ 10:10 pm
Apr. 12th, 2025 10:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
So in my normal handwriting I write "E" as "Ξ" and "A" as "Λ" because . . . I think I saw it once in a book about the Sex Pistols as a kid? And I guess that was super formative.
But anyway yeah I have to remember not to do that here unless I want to get called "Llis."
(I also write "f" as "ʃ" but that’s less of an issue here, specifically.)
Friday @ 3:39 am
Apr. 11th, 2025 03:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
FRIEND WITH AN ANAPHYLACTIC NUT ALLERGY: I mean. There’s a lot of reasons I don’t want to be pregnant. But the cravings are definitely one of them.
FRIEND WITH AN ANAPHYLACTIC NUT ALLERGY: Like. What if I crave nuts???
Thursday @ 6:21 pm
Apr. 10th, 2025 06:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Reblogging to celebrate finally being in a timezone where I actually see day-of-the-week memes on their intended days.
Art! And movie talk!
Apr. 9th, 2025 11:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)

Behold... Thonk, Esquire. Grave orc. Barrister. Animist ghost summoning guy. 42 years old and spending time with beautiful anime boys, a loot goblin*, and a giant talking bear.
I finally got to say the 'my ghosts don't know shit' line last night after absolutely failing a perception roll while listening to ghosts of the many many dead in the castle we're in last night.
( Comic about how we somehow did not hear every single other person on our floor being killed by assassins/ogre/frost giant during the night )
School news: In the course I've gotten a grade back for, A+ which is a nice surprise because I thought I'd completely muffed the project! I got 30/30 on it though, weirdly.
Movie news: Saw
- Miracle Mile (whoa nelly)
- Starship Troopers (viewing it as in-universe fiction from another universe was a great idea. I really liked it as that)
- Live and Die In LA (Grissom no! I know what his penis looks like now so I guess I get some of Sara's ideas)
- Princess Arete (A solid fairytale with pretty low affect for an anime)
- Appointment with Death (decent Poirot, had Lauren Bacall, Carrie Fisher, and Hayley Mills but some really out of the blue added classism)
- Masters of the Universe (NOT an origin movie, basically went 'MY NAME IS HE-MAN AND I'M NOT EXPLAINING SHIT. HERE'S A GUN'. Loved it)
- Private Life of Sherlock Holmes (Solid, not sure why Mycroft was played by Christopher Lee but he did a good job, source of me discovering that Queen Victoria was a little person)
- Look Back (50 minute movie that needed the final 30 minutes desperately)
- RoboCop (another fascist movie with co-ed sexless showering scenes from the same director. Also really liked, but experienced minor alarm when I couldn't tell when the sci-fi dystopia was starting)
- Blow Out (I made a horrible joke that immediately came true in the last scene. Moss says I am the lathe of heaven)
- The Wicker Man (it's a fucking musical! I loved seeing Christopher Lee skipping merrily along)
- Miss Willoughby and the Haunted Bookshop (Very cozy mystery movie, in the old sense of cozy for books not the new sense, and surprised it never got more in the series like it clearly intended. But basically Batman if he'd gone into academia instead and also Alfred was the American)
- Fargo (That Escalated: The movie)
- She Done Him Wrong (Mae West had a lot in common, behaviour wise, with the portrayal of Sherlock in Private Life of Sherlock Holmes)
- Independence Day ("They'll never let you go to space if you marry a stripper" I'm glad he married her anyway.)
- The Blair Witch Project (oh my god this list got long. Uh uh. Well, it filled in some cultural holes and I absolutely love that they visibly cheered up once Josh died, despite still being stuck in the woods)
Okay! That was my much longer than expected movie list! I was going through my 'watch again?' list on prime. There were more like Poseidon Adventure, Josie and the Pussycats, Girlbusters, Moonstruck, MIB, Christine, etc, but I'm out of will.
ALSO Christine the movie about the car what kills inspired me to create some sequels. Which upon posting these to a chat, someone started ranting about Hollywood being creatively bankrupt until I went 'these are clearly made up. By me' and he went 'oh'. I need paid to be in chatrooms sometimes, I swear.

*bird person.
Wednesday @ 5:00 pm
Apr. 9th, 2025 05:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
“Let a website be a worry stone.”
Or any creative hobby, really. When things feel bleak, don’t doomscroll; create. Achieving something small is the first step to knowing you can help achieve something big.
RE: https://follow.ethanmarcotte.com/@beep/114304876779248329